Never thought i'd smell the end of exams, but here we are now, 4 days from Christmas, 2 days from my birthday. I'm apprehensive to some extent actually. I think I want a lot of things to change, maybe too much in too short a time. I had better not get my hopes up too high though. That being said, I'm really excited. Excited to meet all the friends I love so damn much but haven't had the time to meet. There really is something about decembers that moves me into a myriad of emotions. In a lot of ways, it feels like I'm coming home. To who I am, to the people I miss, to unexplainable joy, to a quiet sense of serenity,
to Jesus.

Happy Holidays Everyone. <3

I think too many times I don't try hard enough, or I don't try at all so that when things go wrong, at least I can convince myself that it's due to the lack of effort. Because if I try and fail, it means I'm not good enough. I don't want to know that I'm not good enough. I'm scared of finding that out, especially if it's about something I like. I'm embarrassed to expose my own shortcomings. What if I never become good at the things I like, what if I keep failing despite trying many times. But if I don't try, how will I ever get better.

I think I'm more afraid of failure than I let myself believe, and I'm afraid of developing a passion for things that are not yet within my reach.
I protect myself too much and I don't dare to let my walls come down. 
If I don't try now, when will I ever.

But I just can't start, I'm terrified.

 

make you put your hands up.

Hell yeah, recess week is here. Okay doesn't really feel like a holiday since there's craploads of work to do. But we can all procrastinate once in awhile right. Maybe I can finally go photoshooting with the gang again. I need to make a list of things I need to do, want to do and people I need to skype. <3

It's gonna be a crazy week ahead, like a blizzzzzard.

 

 

 
head back to the milky way.

The past month has been nothing short of physical and emotional fatigue but they were all worth it. DnD was more amazing than I expected and I'm really thankful for the chance to have met the rest of the gang and grown to know them better. But now I should really stop skipping classes and start focusing my work. And maybe if I busy myself a little more, I won't have time to think about certain people, I feel my heart nearing the edge of dangerous ground. 

ANYWAY,

For all those late night preps and protective postures, this one's for you Paddy Ong, CS King. :)

 

Congrats V1, you’re not that much of a jerk anymore, HAHAHA. :)